4 years ago I lost 100 lbs
[Vent Post] In January of 2016 I (30 F) was 250 lbs. (25 at the time). I had a 3 year old and I had let myself go a lot. I decided enough was enough. By Sept 2016 I was down 70 lbs and I gradually lost the last 30 by July 2017. I got pregnant August 2017, gained 40 back but I was able to lose most of it over the next year(30lbs-ish) Then I got pregnant AGAIN. And this time I gained 60 lbs because I was high risk and on bed rest a lot. Well in the last 15 months since my daughter was born, I’ve lost 10 lbs. and I can’t get anything else to budge. My diet the first time was low carb with intermittent fasting. The problem I have now is I can’t intermittent fast because I’m still nursing. I also somehow developed an allergy to dairy and eggs in the last couple years and it’s to the point that I’ll be in agony after one egg or one piece of string cheese. My original low carb diet consisted of a lot of dairy and eggs because dairy has almost no carbs and eggs have none. I’ve tried cico but with 3 kids (one severely disabled) I don’t have the time to constantly measure and track my calories. Low carb and IF was easy for me because it didn’t require a lot of tracking after I laid out my initial meal plans. Now I’m just at a loss. It’s kind of hard to eat low carb when over half of the low carb food options...aren’t an option. I know, I know. Meat and vegetables. To be clear, I’ll starve before I eat a fucking salad and hunk of meat for breakfast. I feel bad for my kids. I refuse to let people take pictures of me because at 210 lbs I feel like such a fat fucking failure. So since my daughter was born last year, aside from selfie’s, I don’t have a single picture of me with my kids. We don’t have any family pictures. I wanted to take some during the holidays but decided not to because I couldn’t stand the sight of myself. So here I am. Stagnant. Depressed. Wallowing in self hatred. Thanks for reading my vent post. I just had to get it all out somewhere before I explode.
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