I fell off the wagon and slipped back into my eating disorder for 3 days.
My eating habits and diet had been going so well. I was healthy and happy. 5'2.5 And 122lbs. I loved my body and was okay with it there. I wanted to see what 115 was like, so was still at a small deficit.
I had bulimia and anorexia through my teen years and haven't had a problem for years until now at 21.
I found out my dad has cancer and only has a couple months left, and I went crazy. I binge ate everything. I binged and binged and binged and then regretted it so much I purged. Then I binged again. And then I purged. I did that for 3 days. I didnt leave my house except to get more trash food. I stayed in bed all day. I punished myself and my body over and over again because I didn't want to sit down and deal with the mental pain. Today's the last day. I'm not doing that again. I'm not slipping into that shitty cycle all over again.
I haven't weighed myself. I'm too scared to. I know most of it will be water weight so there's no point feeling down about seeing myself in the 130s again. I hate feeling bloated and seeing all this water weight on me. It wasn't worth the binging, it never is. I'll weigh myself in a week once I'm back to normal.
Thanks for reading! Just needed to vent
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