Gained most of it back
I gained most of my weight back. I feel embarrassed and I'm literally hiding from many people. Having to utter the words, "I'm doing alright... gained some weight back though" is horrifying to me. People say, "It's okay! You can do it again!" Which is true. I want someone to scold me, not encourage me.
I went from 320 lbs to 200 lbs, now I'm back up to 280 lbs. It happened in a year. I was looking so cute. And I was happy at 200 lbs and 5'4, believe it or not. I have a small upper body, thinner waist and big butt and thighs. I definitely showed off my 30 inch waist and 50 inch hips. Wore tight jeans and cute little tops. Still plus size, but I was happy at that size. I got hit on left and right. I was so proud. Fierce. I became someone I didn't know. I was a gym nut. Was strict on the food I ate. Counted calories. I was hoping to get down to 160. But then...
The old me flared back up. Gradually started eating more, working out less. Then I started eating tons and not working out at all. I haven't talked to my gym friends that I made. Nothing. It's like I didn't prepare myself. I should have stayed in therapy and made plans on what I would do if this happened.
ANYWAY... I still feel badass, that's the difference this time. I didn't lose the confidence with the weight gain. I didn't lose the things I learned. So I'm going to do this again. And I'm happy that I'm not where I was when I first started. I was so clueless and scared. But not this time. =)
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