I will not self-soothe with food, no matter how much I want to.
It's been a rough couple days. Both my grandfather and old friend/coworker passed away. My friend's visitation was last night, and after a big group of us went out for a beer to share stories. I'm back at work today. Tomorrow is my grandpa's visitation, and Thursday is the funeral.
Right now, I want to eat ALL the things. I don't care what. I'm not even hungry. I just want to be eating. This feeling is really odd, and really powerful.
But I know that what I'm actually looking for is comfort. I need to be kind to myself right now, and kindness is not stuffing my face with junk food. So instead of seeking out a snack, I'm reaching out to a few friends and putting on calming music. I'm choosing to feel my grief instead of trying to drown it out with food.
For the curious: 5'8" 29/F 259 lbs --> 198 lbs over the course of 1.5 years, still have quite a way to go. Progress pictures, some NSFW
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