Im overweight and I want to be healthy, but I have a history of disorder eating. Can someone offer me advice?
I'm here for advice. Since I was young, maybe 11, I've struggled with dieting and disordered eating. I was always a quiet and socially awkward kid, and the fact that I was bullied didn't help. I ate a lot to cover my feelings, and I thought that if I was thin then maybe people would like me. My eating disorder peaked when I was 17. While I wasn't vomitting or severely restricting, I was trying to get down to 1200 cal per day, and it just wasn't enough. This led me to binge, and it put me into this vicious cycle of restricting and then over eating. I had no pleasure in food or exercise. I was doing it all to be thin, and it was wrecking my mental health. Before I turned 18, I decided that I had to stop. I let myself eat everything that I had been restricting, but something still felt wrong. Since then, I've recovered quite a bit. I now find joy in exercise, but I'm not as fit as I'd like to be. I stepped on the scale last week, and it said 161. I'm 5'4. I'm overweight. I've gained 30 lbs in the last two years. While I am happier now than I used to be, I still do not feel healthy. I want to start eating healthier, but I'm afraid that I'll fall back into old habits. Recently, I began dropping carbs and eating a lot more fats and proteins, which seems to be helping. I have noticed, however, that I'm putting a lot of stress on myself to be thin. I'm afraid that I'll fall back into old habits. Essentially what I'm trying to say is that I want to eat healthier and be more fit, but I don't want to fall back into disordered eating habits. Can anyone help me with this, or at least offer some advice?
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