I’m crying after today’s workout
In March I went to my yearly physical exam at the doctors. That’s where I found out I am 169 lbs putting me in the obese category according to my doctor. He said a 24 yo female 5’ 2” should not be that weight...alright cool, I’ve known that.
Long story short - i said enough is enough and I got a personal trainer on April 1st
I’ve been going 4-5 days a week to the gym but today felt different. I feel more stronger! I feel better! But I also feel angry...I feel so fucking angry because I let myself get this far. I stuffed my face with junk food and didn’t exercise. Next thing I knew I wasn’t a size small and I wasn’t 115 lbs.
I guess I’m crying because for the first time in a long time I’m actually trying. I’m not giving up. It’s so hard..this is by far the hardest thing I’ve had to do but just like people say gaining weight isn’t overnight- I understand losing the weight isn’t the same. It takes time.
I’m taking this anger and these tears and I’m going to keep going to the damn gym! I’m going to keep pushing through those intense work outs my PT makes me do. The ones where I surprise myself because I think I can’t complete them but I can...
If you’ve read this far I want to tell you to keep going. I know it’s hard! And this is probably one of the hardest thing we’ll have to do but it’s for the best.
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