Need advice: How to lose successfully lose weight with mental health issues. TW: abuse
Hi Loseit.
I’m reaching out here because quite honestly, I have no where left to turn. I am writing this out of pure desperation that somehow, something will click and I will finally be able to get out of this self-induced spiral.
Short synopsis: I’ve always struggled with my weight and my self image. I am incredibly cruel to myself and find every opportunity to put myself down. I don’t have an ounce of confidence or security in who I am or my worth. I have a slew of mental health issues due to being sexually abused from a young age and by young, I mean as young as 1 year.
I’ve tried all sorts of diets and regimens. Some I barely stick to and some I have been able to stick out for longer periods. I decided that maybe I needed to address my issues in therapy 3 years ago. I’ve been consistently seeing someone since that time I made a commitment to seeing this through and my health has only gotten worse.
I have a husband who loves and adores me - he’s keeping our family afloat because I am too sick to work. I constantly deal with suicidal ideation and it seems no matter how many days I wake up and commit myself to dieting and working out; it’s near impossible.
Point is, I don’t want to be gross and disgusting anymore. I want to be healthy and feel happy with myself for the first time in my life. I’m afraid if I do not do this, I will never be able to make it.
I know this is a lot to put on here but someone must have gone through a similar journey and has some light to shed on this. As a side note: I am on medication and still in regular therapy.
Thank you to all who care, even if it’s just a little.
SW: 240 CW: 179 GW: 145 F | 29 | 5’2”
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