Officially 300lbs on Mother's Day
Today I hopped on my scale and saw the truth that I only saw through others' eyes. I dreaded this moment for my whole life. As a daughter of a morbidly obese father, I thought, Nah, this could never be me. But over the years, through motherhood, college, breakups, trauma, career obstacles and more, I never thought I could actually get here.
Today I weigh in at 300 lbs.
And, I now recognize that if I don't put Me first, all my other encyclopedia of responsibilities won't matter. My health comes first, FOR ME. Not so I can "look cuter"(lies, you are gorgeous at any size), fit the mold (i was born to be a rule breaker), or obtain the affection from ANYBODY (Flings, Family OR friends). This matters because I'm only 34, and I'm worried I won't make it to 54. That the pain in my lower back is getting beyond bearable, I am worried of every pain means a stroke, that my mental health will continue to decline. That I need to show up for MYSELF when no one has done so before.
So ladies and gents, this is my Day 0.
Thank you for reading and for all of your support.
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