Help ?

I'm 14(f)/sedentary (I try to walk at least 12k but on weekends I get lazy so I just stay in bed and that's all) 160 cm (5"3)/72 kg (159 lbs) so I am obese. I was 80 kg (or more) then went to 69 kg and I don't know what happened but when the weekend hit I just kept eating and A LOT , I was over my tdee with thousands and I didn't even feel full I just felt sick and now I'm back to 72 kg and I overate again by 3,200 cals yesterday and today my breakfast only was 1,189 cals so I have 311 left but I know I will overeat . When I first started losing weight I ate 1,200 cals or less but now I'm eating 1,500 cals so I don't know why this is happening and even right now I'm thinking about making food while crying and I know it's better for me to not count cals but I will really go overboard if i don't and then again I don't want to count cals when I achieve my gw but I can't because I don't have a healthy lifestyle , I'm also losing weight primarily to look skinny not for health (I know it should be for health) and my mom literally buys me junk food and fast food and when I tell her to not get me she insist and says she would get me a small one and gets something when I didn't even say yes or just gets without telling me and keeps telling me why did you eat it (I eat it in the end) . I don't know what to do anymore I just want to lose weight, and find a good reason to (not to just be skinny), feel full not sick and maintain a healthy lifestyle.

Sorry if it's a mess I just threw everything.

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