"Die You Fat Obese Bitch"
Those were the last words spoken to me by my "partner". I confided in him about wanting to lose weight. Confided in him about my binge eating disorder. Allowed him to "coach" me with diet/exercise tips. Listened to the insensitive "joking" comments that he would make about my weight/size & let them roll of my back because I was 250 pounds so OF COURSE he was right.
The comments were always in jest or "dripping with sarcasm", I was simply being too sensitive. The comments were never the problem, my reaction to them was our sole source of contention.
Fuck. That.
I'm down 55 pounds since January and recently re-joined onederland after a far too long hiatus. I decided to open up & make myself vulnerable last night by sending him a not so flattering image of my "before" which was viciously thrown back in my face. I asked him to delete it after viewing and was informed that of course he had deleted it because "my fat disgusting picture wasn't worth his time or energy & he didn't want people to see that disgusting shit on his phone" (a joke, of course! Funny guy).
It's been an excruciatingly slow burn but I finally reached my breaking point. Every "joke" was thrown back in my face in the form of an insult. Fat, disgusting, pig, obese... and the cherry on top? He threatened to publicize my "before" picture and has proceeded to UNBLOCK ME AND CONTINUE SENDING ME SAID IMAGE SINCE BLOCKING ME 5+ hours ago. (All while claiming that I'm the crazy one).
Fuck. This. Guy.
Fuck making yourself vulnerable to someone who doesn't deserve it. He was interested @ 250 fucking pounds but now that I've lost 55 I'm a disgusting piece of human garbage unworthy of his precious time.
Know your fucking worth. This is only going to motivate me further. Do your fucking worst. Show the world what I looked like 55 pounds ago. Make me "suffer". Never again will I succumb to someone's bullshit like this. I still have a long fucking way to go and yet I'm still miles ahead of this pathetic excuse of a human being.
This community encompasses everything that this guy lacks and I couldn't be more happy to be apart of it.
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