I don't want to be the fat friend anymore.
I've tried losing weight in what has felt like forever. But I wasn't really "there". I hadn't really reached my breaking point. It happened yesterday.
I was at a concert with a friend of mine, who is truely beautiful. Tall, slim and strong. And I could see people looking at us. The way they looked at her and the way they looked at me.. It broke me.
I don't want to feel like that anymore. I don't want to resent my friends for their bodies. I want to feel equal to them. I don't want to be afraid to go clubbing/to concerts because nothing fits right and I feel like a potato next to these amazing people. I know that they have insecurities of their own, but they make me feel like less of a person, even though they don't mean to.
My parents recently gave me a Fitbit Charge 2 for my birthday and I bought a huge water bottle. I want to start eating smaller portions and drinking more water. I have to start small or I'll end up tripping myself and fall back to my old ways.
I don't want to be the fat friend anymore. I fucking refuse to be that person anymore.
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