SV: A new low
30F 5'7" SW230 CW186 GW140 (on mobile, can't flair)
I haven't seen the 180s in over four years. Two years ago, I saw a picture of me from a family party, and I didn't recognize myself. I was 230lbs and in what would turn out to be the middle of a hefty depression. I decided that I couldn't change much that was going on around me, but I could change how I felt and how I felt about myself.
Two years of ups, downs, binge eating followed by shame, and a bunch of wasted money on gym membership days that I skipped because I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror before I left and was too embarrassed about how I looked in my workout clothes or some other made up excuse... And here I am.
I turned 30 in April. I never do new year resolutions but I decided that I was going to be under 200 for my birthday as a gift. I also decided I was going to run the Warrior Dash obstacle course event in July. Signed up as soon as I saw an ad. I love horrible mtv shows and The Challenge is my favorite because all their cool challenges look like so much fun. I figured I needed a goal other than a number to work towards and this sounded like a fun way to focus on training instead of what I can and can't eat. Food definitely plays a huge part in being healthy, but instead of saying "I can't have fries/ice cream/fast food/etc," I was thinking about how I feel after I eat that stuff and how it slows me down when I'm training. And I don't have time to miss a good day at the gym.
As of January 1, 2018, I was 214 lbs. On my birthday, I was 201. I didn't let it discourage me. At this point, I had been going to the gym pretty frequently, and felt better in some of my clothes. I felt stronger and more confident. I was doing something completely for me and could only rely on me to do it.
I started following Alexia Clark on Instagram after seeing a couple of her routine posts. I would try some moves I saw and I started looking forward to trying other ones she posted. Before I knew it, I was saving a whole menu of circuits I could try. This was fun? Why haven't I been doing this the whole time?!
Anyway. Today I stepped on the scale to see 186.7 and I couldn't be more proud of myself. Friends and family started saying stuff about how I look. Even acquaintances at work have mentioned that I look different. The race is coming up soon. I've never ran a race. I'm excited and nervous and I am so friggin ready to try this.
I have a family reunion the same day as the race. I finally have something exciting to share. Hopefully photos from this one won't make me cringe!
TLDR goals don't have to be numbers. Find workouts that are fun for you. Do them. Enjoy cuter dresses.
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