I wish I could cocoon myself until I have made the full transformation to a fit and healthy butterfly
Once you accept that you need to lose a lot of weight (for me, 75 pounds) and you are committed and on your way to doing so....how do you feel comfortable living life in your current skin?
I know to successfully lose weight you have to also work on confidence and self-acceptance but I struggle doing so when I’m constantly reminded that just because I want to be healthier and am committed to doing the work, doesn’t mean a damn thing while I’m still fat.
For example, last night I went to a Christmas party with five gorgeous and fit couples and my gorgeous and fit husband, I’m the only fat one of the entire group. We take group photos of “just the girls”, I’m the only fat one. We sit down to eat, I’m the only fat person putting food on their plate. We play games, I’m the only fat one struggling getting up and down on the floor. I picked a white elephant gift that was a size medium funny shirt that quite obviously wont fit me. Everyone looks pained when I was the one who chose it and I force a polite smile and die a little inside. Pictures are posted to Facebook? I’m the eyesore of the group.
It’s wholly embarrassing and I dread being around people. I feel sad for my husband that he’s the only husband with the fat wife and I feel sad for myself for being constantly uncomfortable and insecure while I should be focused on enjoying life.
I KNOW in a year it will be different, but a year is a long time and these kinds of things really sock me in the gut. I just want to hide away until I am finally at a “normal” weight, but obviously that’s not possible.
Does anyone have tips on what they did/do to feel good during their transformation?
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