Finally at a healthy BMI (long post)
First off, written on mobile so sorry if formatting is bad. Now on to my journey.
So 2 years ago at age 21, I started my weightloss journey after about 5 unsuccessful attempts on and off from the age of 13.
I'd been overweight my entire life, but when I was 17 I developed clinical depression and generalized anxiety and told to it wasn't ever going away. I shut down and pretty much hibernated for 6 months of my life and gained about 70lbs taking me from being overweight to morbidly obese. I'd tried numerous times to get the weight gone and it just never worked or never managed to be stuck to. I hit 290lbs and panicked (I'm 5'10)
Bring on 2017, I sat down and did some research, I discovered CICO, I set up MFP, initially at about 1800 Calories, and then I said screw it lets do this. The weight starting melting off me, after a few weeks I cut down to 1200calories and added in IF 5 days a week. The depression was there, but it was backing down, I was working more, smiling more. Then at the end of 2017/beginning of 2018. I had a heap of personal issues, my parents split and both moved to various parts of the globe while my mom refuses to have anything to do with us, my depression reared its head hard, my best friend and I lost contact, I quit my job, my marriage hit a tough spot due to mistakes of my own doing and there was no doubt about it. The depression was hitting back hard.
My weightloss started stalling. I wasn't gaining but I wasn't losing, and i was logging less every day, I stood at a turning point in my life. And I chose to fight. Repaired my marriage, threw myself back into work, told the depression it was not going to win this time. And now, just over a year later I finally hit the healthy range of my BMI.
The depression and anxiety are still there, but they sit in the background most days. The days that they don't, I've managed to find my own ways to cope through them. I still have another 15-20lbs to lose, as my stomach still holds more weight than I'd like and I want to get nicely in between my healthy weights before reverting to maintenance.
But I am living proof you can do it. You can fight mental illness and binge eating. You can take the plunge. You can win even when everything and everyone thinks you will fail.
If this post inspires anyone to fight, or to carry on fighting then I'm glad. Even if it doesn't, thankyou for taking the time to read my story. (I will be posting before and after pics once I've hit my goal weight)
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