Anyone else feel worse the more they lose?
I'm a 39 year old 5'2" female. I started CICO January 1st at 273 lbs. I added cardio 5 days a week at the end of January. I started lifting weights mid March. As of today I'm at 232. That means I've lost 41 lbs in 3 1/2 months. Objectively I know I've done fantastic. I'm down 2 sizes in clothes, have so much more stamina, and just feel like a completely different person. My doctor even mentioned the muscles she could feel when I had my physical.
All of that said, I find myself really struggling mentally right now. I look in the mirror and all I see is how disgusting my body looks. I think about the fact that even when I'm at a healthy weight, I'm going to look awful naked. I have this vile turkey neck and it just becomes more obvious as the rest of my face thins down.
I'm not in danger of slipping into my old habits. I have absolutely zero interest in going back to my old way of eating huge unhealthy meals and being sedentary. But I'm also tired of hearing "I hate myself" in my head. I'm not depressed. But I also don't know how to silence the negative thoughts when I see myself.
Maybe there's no advice anyone can give. Maybe all I really want is to know there are others that understand. I don't know. I guess I'd appreciate any thoughts.
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