My aunt was really insensitive tonight & I feel super discouraged.
I (F20, 5ft 7in, 240 lbs) started CICO two weeks ago, because I know I need to be healthier. I took this past semester off of college to work & I've gained probably 35-40lbs since I've been home. Sidenote- I started college a year ago at 245lbs but while there I was basically so busy/stressed I got down to 200lbs. I don't eat consistently when stressed for some reason.
Anyway, the past two weeks I was doing really well tracking. I was right at my deficit almost every day. I was even starting to get proud of myself. Then I went on a Memorial Day vacation this weekend with my family & decided I was going to, for just one day, let myself cheat.
Literally in the midst of eating a piece of cake my aunt, whom we were vacationing with, pulls me aside & goes, "OP, I noticed that you've gained a bit of weight since you've been home." As if that wasn't a blow she continues to say, "I just wanted you to know that if you're pregnant & that's why you stopped going to college, we're here to support you."
I was floored. I didn't even say anything for a few seconds & just stared at her with my mouth open. Then I told her that I appreciated her concerns, but that I wasn't pregnant & that I really did take off college to work/not be in so much debt. I could tell she felt embarrassed, but I was just gutted.
I know I've gained weight, but I didn't think I looked pregnant for crying out loud. I don't even carry most of my weight in my tummy. More of a back fat/thigh girl myself lol. I don't really know where I'm going with this, but I just needed to vent bc let's face it I feel like shit about myself after what she said.
Going back to CICO tomorrow & every time I log into My Fitness Pal I'm going to think to myself, "F*** you, Aunt Mary."
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