sick of being a dirty little secret

cw is 190 lbs and my gw is 130 lbs. i (F18) am battling an eating disorder that entails going to food for comfort after being sexually assaulted in my preteens. right now im so sick of being uncomfortable in my body and i just want to be like all the other girls my age who are beautiful and can wear what they want.

the only boyfriends i attract never tell me that im beautiful — but if they do im so sort of secret fetish of theirs and they don’t want to share. i feel gross every time im intimate so this needs to stop.

one day that day will come where ill be alike all the girls i look up to. every every journey starts with a stepping stone and this post might be it :)

EDIT: reading and replying to these comments have been so inspiring. wow. thank you all so much for your kind words i seriously am so excited and pumped and WILL NOT be letting this community down :)

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