When do I stop?
I lost a lot of weight most of I was just puberty I’m guessing...I’m a 5’6 16 year old female last March 2019 I was 165 lbs and around May of this year 2020 I was 150 pounds those 15 pounds were lost unintentionally I didn’t even know I weighed 165 pounds at one point until I went to the doctors for a physical a few weeks ago. At 150 I didn’t really feel good so I decided to lose weight by doing CICO I also cheer so I work out a few times a week. my goal weight was was at first 130 lbs but that just wouldn’t look healthy on my frame so I decided to up it to 135 and I’m currently 138 pounds. At the doctors office my doctor was afraid I had an ED which I’ll be honest about I do think I had/have a bit of disordered eating I don’t want to self diagnose but I’m working on it I upped my calories from 1450 to 1650 so I could still loose weight and I’m trying to realize that a number on the scale does not determine my value or anyone else’s it’s but it’s just a goal I set for myself that I want to reach........ I’m getting tired honestly I’m tired of constantly tracking every morsel of food on the scale and MFP avoiding certain meals/food places because they’re not in my budget I mean they’re are so many Taco Bell’s for a reason right!?I constantly get comments on how small I’ve gotten which is nice I guess people notice the work I put in and I’m not particularly unhappy with my body either it’s more so the numbers I guess but I also feel like 138 is so close to 135 or maybe I should change my goal and try to switch to maintenance (reverse diet first) and maintain 135-140 pounds instead (or is that too much wiggle room?) I just don’t know if I should stop or keep going size I’m so close? I want to enjoy things but I also know that if I stop counting my calories I’ll probably blow up like a balloon and be right back up at 165 but this time I’ll know it I don’t really binge it kinda scares me I get anxiety about food which isn’t normal it’s just now I make smarter choices/low calories and I feel like if I switch my mindset to you can have those chips and you can have those cookies, don’t look at the nutritional label, I’ll just feel terrible because I always do after I eat and I can’t track it or log ... today I didn’t log my dinner because for the first time in a while I ate what my family ate and I had 2 cookies each 140 and cereal bar for 190 I feel awful but those ate normal items to eat so why?.... what do you guys think
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