In desperate need of advice, almost 300lbs

I really need some advice

I'm afab, 21 going on 22 years old, 5'8 tall, and i weigh 250lbs. (i use they/them pronouns if you guys don't mind using that please.)

My entire life I have been fat- normally always in the obese range. My entire life I have tried everything to lose weight, dieting- low carb, calorie counting, etc., exercise, and even embracing life style changes.

I always lose the motivation. I have bipolar depression and bad anxiety- I currently am on a mood stabilizer for it, but i still have a lot of bad days. Im sure this plays into my loss of motivation, but honestly, I am just such a lazy person and a demotivated person.

I love fast food and I love junk food and I LOVE to eat. I am one of the most picky eaters I know too. I don't like many greens, can't eat beef, only drink soda and hate sparkling water (or other soda alternatives). The only healthy food I like is chicken, green beans, corn, a variety of fruits, yogurts, and maybe only a few other things.

And I can't cook either- I'm bad at cooking and i honestly hate to do it (plus i live with my parents still and don't have the access to cook in the kitchen since my mom is rather weird about it.) My dad also has terrible eating habits and is well over 320lbs. He's at the point of his knees breaking from the excess weight.

I've tried calorie counting apps to help motivate me too, but after a few days or a few weeks if I'm lucky, I lose all the motivation and go right back into old habits. Some times I'm insanely strict and do 1200 calories a day, other times I take a lax route and allow small quantities of foods i like so that i don't binge it all. But neither works, i always break the work I've done and end up gaining more.

I eat when im happy, i eat to celebrate, i eat when im sad, i eat when im lonely, i eat when im anxious, i eat when im bored. I eat to coddle every single emotion i have.

Ive gained 50lbs in the last 4 years and im inching closer to 300lbs every day and im getting terrified.

I know this sounds like excuse after excuse-and I'm not denying that it is, but that still leaves me the issues of why can't i just fucking stay on track? why am i so lazy? why can't i do it like everyone else?

I'd be so grateful for unique advice and anyone who can relate to me but managed to be successful to tell me how they did it.

Thank you all very much for taking the time to read <3

submitted by /u/err0r-9
[link] [comments]

from loseit - Lose the Fat https://ift.tt/3oisq9o