Issues with losing and gaining weight.
Laying in bed with covid feeling miserable and kinda just felt like sharing.
So I (33/m, 6ft) have struggled with my weight a lot. When I was younger (18) I was super fit, played a lot of sport, ran cross country, etc etc. I guess being young and athletic let me eat a lot of food and I didn't really develop good habits. I would weigh around 80 kilos (175 pounds) So as I got older, that caught up to me, and by around 26 I started struggling with weight. I would bounce around from 85 to 100 kilos (187 to 220 pounds) depending on the time of year and whether I was dieting, but whenever I hit 100kg (220 pounds) I always got the calorie counter out and started losing weight.
I have also struggled from depression for quite and while and would unfortunately drink to self medicate with that. At 29 I got an infection of the nerves where the brain connects to the inner ear and it totally fucked me up, it's taken years to recover but for at least a year I couldn't drink.
At 30 I went above 100kg (220 lb) for the first time ever, got to 108kg (238 lb) before I managed to get myself under control and lost back down to 90 over the space of a year. Then things went off the rails. I couldn't work out why, but I just kept spiralling till I finally weiged in at 137kg (307 lb). I could barely recognise myself, I was so depressed, after speaking to a eating disorder nutritionist she helped me realise I'd just replaced the alcohol issue with binge eating. And i was having such a hard time doing anything I usually enjoyed. One of the things that always helped me diet was the exercise and sports for the mental as much as the physical stuff. But I'm 33 now and all the extra weight made my back hurt, my knees hurt, I couldn't bend down to strap my bad ankle for soccer, going for a walk outsidewith friends had me hurting and out of breath within minutes, so many everyday things were so hard. The extra weight had made me develop sleep apnoea, it had likely given me low testosterone, just all these issues.
I spent the first 3 months of this year getting from 137 to 130kg losing 7 kilos or 15 lb. But I was losing momentum and I was worried where I'd end up.
In despair I tried some of those meal replacement protein shakes (replacing breakfast and lunch). And it's worked. I lost another 15 kilos (33 lb) in 3 months. But I'm worried because I KNOW that losing weight too fast is bad. I've told myself that the shakes are just a way to get myself to a weight where I can start doing things I enjoy again, and so I can then try and move from the shakes to a healthier diet, as they are not a long term solution. But I see all there stories about how people just put that weight back on again and it worries me. I feel good that I've lost the 22kg (48 lb) in 6 months, but I also know that I've cheated and I am scared I don't know how to turn this into something long term.
Has anyone had success in transitioning from losing a lot of weight into longer term healthier eating? Or am I just kidding myself that I can use the shakes to lose the weight to get myself into a position where I can start developing some of my healthier habits again?
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