Upsetting other people with my own food choices
I know life is life and obviously people don't go through life facing zero resistance, but I don't like being goaded into having snacks and stuff.
Like, sometimes I'll not feel like eating or buying a snack or want to save it for later, but then the person with me will really encourage me to, and then get sad when I'm not eating with them.
They'll buy it for me even though I didn't really need it or want it, which is nice of them to do. They never have to get me anything.
But then it'll turn into that whole, 'Oh, well if you're not eating your snack, I guess I won't eat mine even though I really wanted to!' and I get pouted at under a cloud of gloom for a while.
It's like, I'm not stopping you from eating your snack! In fact I encourage it! You do you! But what do I have to do with this! It's not a personal attack! I swear to god I'm not trying to make you feel bad!
But I feel like, this person needs me to always me either eating with them at the same time or eating more than them, to make them feel better about themselves. Like, eating a lot is my personality trait, which annoys me.
I'm a little bit irritable and sometimes I can feel my temper rising - especially over food related things - until I go and take a walk or a minute to myself, before getting back to normal.
And then it's like, why did you leave! And I just. I dunno. 'Just getting my steps up! :)' - No, I was annoyed, to be honest! But I'm okay now.
It just makes me want to be alone, or with other people that aren't like that (my Mom is a little bit like that, but nowhere near as excessively - just wants to make sure I'm still having meals mostly - and I don't mind that at all).
Maybe that's just my introvert battery beeping though, because since I picked up the habit of exercising, I've been really savouring my alone time.
I know this is fully my fault, but my willpower reserves are low. Enough needling and I know I'll slip and be like, it's not so bad! And just. I wish I weren't like this. I'm not an angry person. I'm far less grumpy and moodswingy when I'm eating whatever-the-hell junk I want.
On the plus side, they said I've been glowing and smiling more recently. Which is true - mostly attributed to how much I like the exercise I've been doing. But I'm also getting way madder instead of being generally placid. Which I do not like.
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