I feel so lost and hopeless.
I'm not sure where else to turn. I am not sure what I am looking for either...maybe motivation or tips. All I know is I am incredibly sad and feel hopeless. I feel like I have lost all control. It's like my brain is screaming STOP eating, but I can't. It's like I go into zombie mode and just switch off the part of my brain that tells me this isn't what I really want. I went through a really bad break up years ago. I gained about 80 pounds. I got about 30 of it off by just eating less, but now it is slowly creeping back on. I have tried all sorts of diets. I stick with them for about a week and then binge.
I know I am depressed, all I want to do is sleep. I am on medication for it also. Nothing makes me as happy as food does. So I use it to make myself feel better. I do have friends and hobbies, but nothing seems to make me as happy as eating. It sounds so pathetic. Part of me thinks I am addicted to sugar and I should cut it out cold turkey. Another part of me thinks restriction leads to binges (I have been diagnosed with BED and seen a few therapists). I'm exhausted all the time, feel sick, and I physically hurt. I can vision the person who I want to be, but I can't seem to get there.
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