Meeting started late because my counselor didn't recognize me
Yesterday, I had an appointment with my case worker at voc rehab. A couple of hours before, she asked me to arrive 15 minutes earlier than we planned because she had another appointment right after mine, so she wanted us to have as much time as possible. So I arrived very close to 1:15pm, told the receptionist who I am and who I was there for, and sat down. I'm just hanging out, time is passing by...it's 1:23, and man, I wonder what's going on. The receptionist gets up, goes to the door in the hall, and I can hear her say my name. I got irritated because I thought the reason I was waiting was that she didn't tell my case worker. I see her come out and she actually just stood there for a second while I got up. "Oh hey! There you are! I didn't recognize you!" she said, as I was forming a response like "oh no problem" in anticipation of her sentence going "I didn't hear that you got here" or "I didn't get in to the office" or whatever reason we didn't start at 1:15. Her saying "I didn't recognize you!" totally stopped me in my tracks, and I couldn't speak for a couple of seconds. I asked "You didn't recognize me?"
Nope. The reason we didn't start on time because, after being told I was here the first time (right after I arrived), she poked her head out the door, didn't see me in the waiting room, and went back. She didn't see me because she didn't recognize me. This is my Voc Rehab counselor, who I've worked closely with over the past four years for my schooling. There's a lot of days where I allow some of my undisciplined thoughts to run rampant, and I can sometimes believe that I'm a mess and haven't changed all that much. A coworker from 2017 told me earlier this year that she wouldn't have recognized me out on the street, but I figured she was just being nice. This was something I literally saw in my case worker's eyes, because she still stood there for a second or two in the doorway without greeting me, even as I was waving and getting up from my chair. Kind of hard for me to ignore reality. Apparently, I have changed that much.
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