The weight loss hasn’t been the hard part I just don’t like myself now
My mother bought a scale about 3 months ago and I decided to use it as I hadn’t weighed myself in years. I was happy with myself not caring about the numbers, I know I am a bigger girl but have always been curvy and tall and have always held the weight quite well or so I thought. The number it showed was so much worse than I thought (217 pounds)! Since finding that out I have lost 25 pounds (192) in a little over two months. I am now constantly thinking about my body and I don’t myself anymore, everything about my body is wrong. I feel depressed, everything good has a thousand calories in it and my mother has gone from telling me I didn’t need to change a thing about myself to being elated about her “shrinking daughter”.
I have lost all my confidence, I don’t want to be intimate with my partner anymore because I feel more disgusting than ever.
The idea of gaining a single pound now and not being in a calorie deficit makes me feel sick. I don’t want to go back to previous ignorance about my weight but I feel I’m still at the starting line and I still have so much weight to lose. I just hate how much this is consuming my mind in a negative way and I don’t know how to change that.
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