It's back. My motivation is back, at 1am, do I listen to it?
In the last 3 weeks my motivation has dwindled. Last November I started dieting and up until June I lost 110 lbs. But now I'm back up 10 lbs since the first of the month.
I'm conflicted. I'm on hour 12 of a 13 hour shift and I have another one starting 12 hours after this shift ends and 2:15am.
But it's back. My motivation and my will to be better. I'm exhausted, I even started smoking again and my back is killing me. My knees as well. But if I could do one hour on the elliptical I could say I won today.
I have no reason to say no, do I? I put it off for 3 weeks and suddenly now I think if I say no today I'll be able to wake up before work tomorrow and workout? I know that is bulls***. I know if I go home and sleep, I'll sleep in and it'll be 3 weeks and 1 day of failure. I'm at 100 lbs down and 60lbs to go. At one point I only had 49 lbs left to lose. I'm going to wake up lighter tomorrow.
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